Stringy Things
30 Jul 2011 Leave a Comment
Have you ever looked back on your actions and thought, “What the fuck was I thinking?!” Well… Jorge was a HUGE mistake. I always had the feeling that he was temporary and ld run away sooner or later. Isn’t that what most illegal aliens do?! Oh, well. I was using him for a good time. I knew that hanging out with him meant a fun weekend of partying and seeing my friends from BK, so I let him lie to me and ignored a lot of things that I should have kicked his ass for. But Lesson Learned. Trust me. You can only fake love for so long before it comes back to bite you in the ass. I’m not really upset. Just a little humiliated. Because shortly after I cut off all contact with him, he slept with this girl… I obviously am the one having my cake and eating it too. Makes me wonder what the other girls he’s been with look like. You can pretty much take the disgust that I already had for him and multiply it by 50. He doesn’t matter anymore, though. It’s weird how I’ve been in long-term relationships, but none of them left scars like the 6 months of dating Jorge did… I guess that’s because no one ever made me feel like I wasn’t even a person, less than nothing…except him. The sad part is, I let him.
My scars are healing every day because I’m a brand new person, with all the old flair. All of my changes are on the inside. I hold myself at a higher worth now. I expect more of myself,, me,, my star player- the one who looks back at me every morning in the mirror. And I also expect more of the people I surround myself with. Speaking of which, there’s one man I want to surround myself with every day: John <3 <—– Now this guy right here is everything I’ve ever wanted. He’s intelligent, extremely hilarious, stunning, an amazing father, and I have this sense of comfort around him that you can’t find anywhere except in yourself. When I’m around him, I want to skip for no reason. And yes, we are the weirdest couple. ~John&Sarah~
I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity. ~Poe
