Tuesday- March 8, 2011

08 Mar 2011 1 Comment

by Sarawr in Uncategorized

This is the now- what’s going on. Life is so much different. It’s amazing how much can change in such a short period of time. But when you’re young everything is stuck on fast forward. For a while I lived in solitude. I never left my house unless it was absolutely necessary and unavoidable. I didn’t want anyone to see me- how sick I was. Needless to say, I didn’t feel normal. But eventually I pulled myself out of the cloud I was living in and I started going to my friend’s houses. I started talking to people again. I caught myself smiling again. But then Jordan came back. I should have known better when he came around that he was going to make me cry. We had a pretty rough relationship for over two years based on tough love… And it ended almost as quickly as it began. When he came back this last time, just as life was starting to get better, he was just getting revenge- and I can’t say I blame him. Isn’t that what everyone wants? To get even? Well… Jordan felt wronged and that time he got the last laugh. I’m just going to let him have it. After that, I thought about burying myself again- hiding… But I knew that wouldn’t do any good. Then I just cut myself off emotionally and did whatever I wanted to do. Everything was about me for a while- I was sick of worrying about everyone else.

 

Then I met Jorge Ochoa. I’m glad to call this guy my friend. We’ve been together for a week and he’s an awesome guy. The coolest thing about him is… Even if we weren’t a couple, I know I could kick it with this guy. My whole life I’ve been a magnet for squares. Everyone I’ve ever dated has been my polar opposite. But with Jorge, I don’t feel like the bad influence. It’s exciting.

 

My life is so much better now and I have a word of advice for anyone suffering from social anxiety or living a reclusive lifestyle due to depression- You’re not helping anyone, only hurting yourself. Get out of your house and do something. Anything to just feel better. You won’t regret it. Oh, and drugs help too.

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